there are somethings that i want to blog my heart out, somethings that i very much want to say, somethings that i don't want so many people to know about. somethings that are for my eyes only. but i do not have that courage to do so, i fear of the possible aftermath.

i fear a lot of things.
i may look happy sometimes, but i am not.
i may look aloof, without a care, but i do. i care.

i just want your attention, i just want your care, i just want to feel that i am there, that i am still there, and that i can be there.
i don't want to feel the pangs of loneliness, the world is small enough for me already.

sometimes it's just so frustrating and excruciatingly exasperating to live, i don't even know who i am now. i don't seem to be able to reveal my full and natural self. rena darlin' i totally empathise with what you are going through, and i am so very glad to see you today really! your change in your "ahems" image, is quite refreshing. HAHAHA. don't get hurt arhh babe. i am forever loyal towards you! hahas. reminiscing our old days in zhband, where we used to go overly the top with all our crazy antics. (remember the time where we got embarrassed in front of the entire band when we were so engrossed in our lil' dumb acts that we didn't notice mr aw sneaking up and tappin' us with the baton, it's superly hilarious i tell you!! )

i simply love rena rauruohui!! ! :) KISSES YOUUUU!!

hey girls, i really miss you guys okies. shall meet up pretty soon and i can envisage that in bout 2 weeks time we shall have a blasting good time! meanwhile, lemme say once again, I MISS YOU GUYYS!! :) hugs and kisses.

lemme post some pics up for now:)