i didn't manage to finish the previous entry. thought of starting anew.
was given 2 days MC from the doctie yesterday.
nearly suffered the wrath of the doctie for the high fever of 38.5 deg.
man. i didn't know my sore throat on tuesday will escalate and aggravate to a high fever.
MAN.
skipped interact on wednesday to go see doc.
my supposed 2.4 km run was hence postponed. ARRHH. gweat.
now i gotta run i think, maybe 4 weeks laterr. yucks. and of course, that much hated i-pull which i am so poor at. gotta train once i have fully recovered.
the fever and drowsy med is catching up on me.
slept most of the day away.
too tired to bother.
thankfull, julie garwood is here to accompany me throughout my day.
bak-kua sitting innocently in the living room isn't really helping,
great mental struggle for me to keep my hands off that containerr..
right after my horrible ordeal with Mr. Fever, i shall saviour every bit of that BAK-KUA.
super delicious. -chums

right-O.
about my dreams.
regina said i have changed.
ever since the 1st 3 months of my jc-life, i have changed.
she can't tell me in what ways, but she said i have changed, she can sense it.
and she was really shocked by it.
reflecting on what she had said,
i think i re-evaluated myself and agreed with her.
the way i speak, the way i blog, write, the way i conduct myself, the way i treat others, the way i react, the way i express myself. i think i have changed.
CHANGES.
the constant of my life now.
i think i have changed the perspective of life now.

naive as i may sound,
i used to think that the world is beautiful.
and that i don't understand how and why would anyone want to ruin another's life or not take into consideration as to why things were the way they are.
after that superly long talk i had with regi the other day,
it made me realise that,
i begin, and she has already begun, taking things as they were.
people began to disregard how others think and feel,
they do not seem to care as much as they should now, and they do not wish to bother themselves much with worldy events, apathetic maybe?
they just seem to care about themselves and only themselves,
[writting a gippy essay on selfishness may really get me an average of C or D, no two sides of the point huh?]
that's how life might actually be.
a dog eat dog life.
being able to live life to my fullest now would be of great luxury, but in order to pursue our dreams, or to be able to ensure our survival in this world,
i think that luxury would be hard to obtain,
unless, i can find luxury in studying and cramming amounts after amounts of information into my head.
darrrnn.
i miss a whole load of things in life now.
somehow, i feel cold and lonely.
like i said, i think the fever's coming onto me now.


do you notice?