calling names down the register during lesson
and my name rang in the class,

"shuling. not expected."

i feel that i have utterly disappointed chinkah.
i should have put in more effort.
i should have.
regrets regrets regrets.
all about regretting this, and regretting that.
something must be done.
but i just can't muster up enough discipline to push myself to get down to serious business.
why?

AJC had half day off today
me jocelyn seeleng and lynn went out together to town.
shopped around hoping to look for sneakers but to no avail.
AJC should have a full day off,
furthermore, i heard we did really well!
it feels good wearing AJ uniform on the streets these days.
we can finally lift our heads high!! :)
yups yups!!
but the pressure will be on us ya.
we gotta carry on that good results.
STRESS!!!!

"Over"

I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
And my tears are turning into time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus:]
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus]

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus]

Tell me that it's over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that its over
Don't tell me that its over..
* forgetting you.