i have never classified you guys as second choice,
that i can say with pride.
reason why we couldn't make it were things that can't be helped.
on the first saturday in which we had agreed on going out,
i really had a family gathering in afternoon that i can't push away.
it's where my entire paternal side of the family gathers like annually.
it was compulsory for me to go.
and seriously,
do you guys want to bai nian at night?
i don't think so rights?
and since i thought that way,
i thought it would be alright for me to join joc and the rest for yusheng
that day.
and we can't go out on sunday cause i've got a history test on monday.
it's common test, not some dumb class test.
on the next saturday,
i really wanted to ask you guys out,
but i realised i had family day only when i brought the matter up to ru.
i even forgot i had family day fun fair!!!
and it would be really bad if i don't turn up as it's a school event.
and if i'm not wrong, yinru was also preoccupied on that day with her
work and afternoon cip.
and sunday we can't as well cause i have a test, 2 in fact.
coupled with loads of homework to clear.
i am really terribly sorry for not being able to bai nian with you guys.
and i feeel reallly bad. but i guess circumstances just did not
allow for it. so sorry.
that's all i gotta say. yups. hope you guys will understand our predicament.

furthermore,
i don't think it's really right to say that if you guys didn't plan anything,
there will be nothing.
cause it's not exactly true. i think lar.
i tried asking you guys out a few times but we just can't go out
cause you guys got lessons and stuff.

meanwhile,
missing you guys really badly.

+ tried diverting my attention. but is it
really working?? +

hah.
things are angetting worst and worst.
who do they think they are?
top of the world?
farkk off man.
you guys just make me feel real sick.