life sucks.
i feel so depressed suddenly.
like my world's crushing down on me.
it's not right.
people should be positive,
and look forward to brighter days.
especially at the start of the new year.
but why do i feel so glum?
so down..
and so helpless..
it's like, the world hates me.
my very existence in denial.

people tell me i shouldn't self reprimand and feel so small.
people reassure that i am fine, the way i am.
people tell me no matter what life still goes on.

i am definitely not suicidal.

cause i know that i have people who care about me.
but i feel so small and alone all of a sudden.
Don't know what overcame me.
Is it stress? [but i am so slack!!]
I shudder to think more and dwell on this matter.
it's making my days blue.
Lighten up!
i miss the monkeys.
where are you guys..
why are there conflicts..
thought we are peaceful?

peace...
existence..
null?