im bloggin away at ru's house!!
hee..it's been a long time since we had a
small sleepover.
but if we realise hard enuff,
of all the many many sleepovers that we haf.
there was onli one memorable time in which all
4 of us were present.
hehe.it was gd.i still vividly remember that day.
but today we are short of one of the member of the
*mon[k]ey* gurls.
that's quite sad.but i am glad that most of us are here already.

i reali dunno wat more to sae then we reali miss
havin you around i guess.
we are reali reali worried and concerned abt you noe.
but jus now after visitin you,
i reali wonder wateva we did was worth it.
i am not complaining.
not complainin abt the effort we had put in for that book.
you may think it was nothing.
but it meant loads to us. cus it was our
heartfelt words.
we are not askin much in return.
but for your understanding.
we are not asking you to tell us everything in ur life.
but jus askin you to pour ur problems to us.
i think im one of those hu u seldom tell things to.
but it's ok.
jus that turn to us when u haf a problem.
even if you duno how to phrase those problems out rites,
it's always good and nice of you to TRY.
i mean. how do you noe that i wun understand you.
that you reali do not noe how to sae it out.
if you dun even try.

maybe you dun haf enuff trust in me.
it's alrite.
im not askin you to give ful trust in me.
im jus asking you to try.
it's no point at all callin ourselves besties.
if i duno wat you are thinking.
if i duno basic things like what's making you sad.
50 years down the road. when we turn back and look.
i want to noe that all our efforts in keeping us together is worth it.
i want to noe that we have gone thru rough times like now,
and pulled thru it, gaining more knowledge about ouirselves.
in that i think we will really understand
true frenship.
im not going to walk away from you like many who mite haf walked out of me. or you or regi or ru.
im stayin.
if all this while this had not been clear for you. im sayin it out right now.

even a new cafe will face many troubles.
but this cafe will stay strong if the founders are willing to try and keep it there.
i hope that you wil understand yourself. me. regi. ru. or ani one dat mite be involved in this beta.

i haf no idea how you mite take and respond to wat i jus mentioned.
but i dun wish it would start ani cold war.
cus we noe many unwanted and painful memories mite fossilise deep in our hearts.
it aint wat i want it to be like.